I want, but that's crazy

the more facts, the better! they can be anything :)

• Harry
• Zayn
• Liam
• Louis
• Niall
• Larry
• Lilo
• Lirry
• Narry
• Niam
• Nouis
• Zarry
• Ziam
• Zouis

Which one? :)

I WILL BE MAKING A SEPERATE BLOG FOR MY FANFICTION! I WILL BE POSTING ALL THE CHAPTERS BACK ONTO THAT BLOG. I’LL POST A LINK TO IT SOON <3

Gracie’s POV:
I woke up to an empty house which I was grateful for. I was not in the mood for anyones bullshit right now. I got up to change and threw on some mid thigh booty shorts & a long tee. I decided to have a lazy day. I checked my phone, 3 missed calls, 2 from Claire & 1 from Layla. I ignored it an went downstairs to get some breakfast. As I was pouring some corn flakes, I heard a knock at my door. I opened it to find Liam.
“Hey” he said awkwardly.
“Hey..” I muttered.
“I think we need to talk.” he said, coming in. I put down my cereal as he headed for the living room. We sat down and he sighed.
“Explain yourself” he said bluntly. I took a deep breath and thought about it. How could I explain myself? How could I explain it to him when I didn’t understand it in the first place? I sat there, clueless.
I guess he caught on to the fact I didn’t know where to start so he asked, “how long has it been?” he looked me straight in the eye.
“I don’t know….week or two..” I said, ashamed.
He put his head in his hands. I felt so bad. How could I hurt him like this?!
“I’m sorry…I really am Liam.” I said, my voice shaky & fresh tears coming.
“Then why?! Why would you do this to me?” he said, frustrated.
“I was drunk!! Liam it’s not like me, you know that. Please don’t let it ruin anything. It was a mistake. A drunken mistake. That’s all!” my voice cracked and I broke down into tears. He looked troubled and confused.
“You werent drunk yesterday.”
“I didn’t do anything yesterday! We hugged, that’s all, promise!”
He sighed again, clearly in thought.
“Please forgive me Liam, it was a mistake!” I couldn’t anymore. I loved him. I really did, I was done with Niall, no more hugging, kissing, nothing! I needed him to see that.
Suddenly his eyes widened and he opened his mouth in shock.
I followed his eyes to where he was staring. My thighs.
Shit!

Liam’s POV:
Gracies shorts had slouched up a bit and I noticed something on her thighs. I couldn’t believe it at first, but I took a second look & I was right! Cuts!!
She had cut herself, long deep lines, they were scarring. She saw that I had noticed and she looked embarrassed. I touched the cuts lightly.
“Gracie…..why?” I asked quietly. I couldn’t believe it. Was her life that bad? Was she suicidal? Why didn’t she tell me? What else was she hiding?
She turned her head away, still crying.
“Gracie, what’s wrong? What made you do this to yourself?!”
“I..I dont know Liam! Everything, it’s everything, my life is so screwed up! From my mom cheating on my Dad, to-“
“Woah woah, what?”
“Yeah that skank is sleeping with someone else. To get my mind off my mom, I drink, when I drink, I get with Niall, when I get with Niall I leave you! And Taylor! I was hurting both of you & I couldn’t stop! I’m such a screw up, I’m ruining everything!” she sobbed into the pillow. I could tell she hadn’t told all this to anyone. I put my arm around her and she cried into my shoulder.
“Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”
“I didn’t think you’d care.”
“Gracie, why do you think my Dad left? He was cheating on her. She kicked him out of the house. I’ve been through this. You just need to talk to me, okay?” she nodded her head, looking really surprised. I hadn’t told anyone that, but I could trust her. I loved her.
“It’s okay babe…it’s okay.”
“It’s not!”
“It will be. I’m here. Always.” she smiled and kissed me on the cheek.
“Liam, I love you.”
I loved her. Even after what she did to me. After she said her story, I understood. It was hard & she panicked. At least I think I understood.
“I love you too.”

Taylor’s POV:
I woke up the next morning in a bed, which confused me. Didn’t I fall asleep with Niall by the river? I hoped it wasn’t only a dream. I turned over to find Niall sound asleep beside me. I guess it wasnt. I smiled at the beautiful sight. I missed him so much.
I kissed him lightly on the nose and slightly smiled. I got up to change when he suddenly grabbed onto me and pulled me back to the bed.
“Nialler!!” I said through my laughing fit. He tackled me on the bed and next thing I knew we were in a full blown play fight. He was winning since I could barley control myself from all the laughter. I pulled myself together and plopped him down on the bed, holding his arms over his head and crouching above him.
“I win.” I said with a smirk. I could feel him harden on my leg and left him wanting more. I got up and headed to his closet.
“You tease!” he called after me. I looked through his closet for something comfy when I hear his phone ring.
“Hello?” he answered. “Oh hey Harry. Yeah I’m with Taylor. What time? We’ll be there. See you seen mate.” he hung up.
“What was that all about?” I asked him.
“Harry wants us to meet him at the tea shop. He said it was important.”
“What time?”
“One hour.”
“Alright” he grabbed me from behind and I turned around to a kiss.
“You know you couldn’t leave me like that.” he said cheekily.
“I know.” I said with a wink.
Half n hour left.

Liam’s POV:
I felt the tears coming and ran out of Louis before anyone could talk me out of it. How could she? I loved her! She told me she loved me! And Niall? How could he do this to me?! I ran towards the park, the only place I could think of.
I slowed down when I got closer as Niall jogged opposite of me. His face fell when our eyes met.
“Mate, it’s not like that really, I would never-” he began, putting his hand on my shoulder.
I brushed it off. “fuck off.” I said and walked away. He was in utter shock.
I didn’t care, I dont deserve to be treated like this. I was always breaking my kneck for Gracie, giving her chance after chance. I sat and the swing and pushed off from the ground lightly. I felt the tears coming and looked down. I cried away the pain, all of it. A minute in, I was sobbing. How could they?
I thought about all the good times we had together. She seemed truly happy then. Maybe she faked it or maybe she hadn’t been sneaking off behind my back then. I hoped not. I was truly happy, every moment I had spent with her, and now I feel empty and alone. It was getting too dark so I jogged home.

Niall’s POV:
Everything had gone wrong, everything I planned for, everything I tried to do. Today was supposed to be the day I win back Taylor. When I saw her with tears in her eyes it broke my heart, but I wasnt giving up now, I couldn’t hold it in anymore.
I tried to talk to Liam when I saw him near the park but he had cussed at me and brushed me off but this wasnt the time for him. He’d come back, I know. He only needed to blow off some steam.
I stopped to think, where would Taylor go? She lived somewhere near here so she was familiar with the neighborhood. Maybe the river. We had gone there on our first date, it was the only place I was familiar with. I trotted down to the river and sure enough, she was there, her beautiful long blonde hair falling down her back in perfect curls. She was sitting on a bench facing the river. I silently crept towards her and sat next to her on the bench. I put my arm around her and she turned away.

Taylor’s POV:
Niall had found me at the river. I sort of wanted him too but at the same time I didn’t wanna be with him. But he was the only person u could think of to make me happy, even when he was the problem. I didn’t want him to know that though. He put his arm around me and I turned away. My mascara was dripping down my face and my hair was all out. I looked like a mess. I sobbed and sobbed and we sort of sat there for a little while, me turning away and his arm around me. I broke the silence.
“Why Niall?” I asked through tears, facing him.
“Taylor. You didn’t see what you thought you did.”
“It was pretty clear to me.”
“Let me explain. See, I wrote you something but I wanted to make sure it was good enough because I wanted it to be perfect. And I planned out how I was gonna say it to you and everything, you just came at the wrong time, it wouldve been perfect.” he said it all in one breath.
“What? Wrote what?”
“This. Hopefully it’ll explain it better.” I looked in his eyes as he sang to me. The song was beautiful. My tears were slowly stopping as I stared in amazement. I knew Niall had talent, but this was something else. I looked down when he had finished. I was still confused. Should I trust him or not?
He lifted up my chin and looked me in the eyes.
“I love you.” he said in that wonderful Irish accent.
He slowly brought his head closer towards mine and finally our lips meant.
Instant sparks. My stomach filled with butterflies. It felt so amazing and I never wanted to stop. He was getting more and more passionate and so was I. I turned me body to face him and wrapped my legs around him. He held the back of my head, playing lightly with my hair and pulling me in more. I cupped his cheeks with my hand and we finally pulled away for a breath. We smiled at each other as he pulled me in for another round, this time using our tongues in the process. It felt amazing.
After a couple minutes, we pulled away and laid down next to the river and watched the stars come out. I laid with my head on hi chest and his arm around me as we talked and laughed.
“Niall?”
“Hmm?”
“I love you.” it felt good to say it again.
He kissed my head. “I love you too beautiful.”
I fell asleep to the sounds of the river passing through and Niall’s steady heart beat. Everything was getting back to normal.

Gracie’s POV:
I ran home and opened the door.
“Hey sweetie, how was it?” my dad asked. I ran past him and up into my bathroom. I immediately grabbed the razor and sat down. Just as I was about to cut I thought about it.
Why was I doing this? I loud scream from my parents downstairs interrupted my thoughts. Oh yeah. That’s why. I looked in the mirror. Another reason why. I took a deep breath and cut in. I let it bleed.
Now what? What had I done? I was ruining everything! The tears just kept coming. I looked around me to see the tub filling with blood. This was way too much. I held on the cut to stop it from bleeding & patched it up, cleaned up, and went to sleep. Life couldnt get any worse.

Liam’s POV:
I couldn’t avoid her forever, I had to talk to Gracie. Yesterday I guess I was overreacting, it wasnt like me to act like that. But then again, it wasn’t like her either. I got up, took a shower, and jogged my way to Gracie’s house.

The more facts, the better xx

Taylor’s POV: Louis invited the gang over to his house today since his mom was going out and we’d have the house to ourselves. I was excited to see Niall today. I decided tonight would be the night I tell him how I felt about him and hopefully we could start over. We were to meet at Louis at 5:00pm. It was my turn to bring the beer. I checked the time, 12:15pm. I spent the day trying to plan out how I would say it to him. I opened up my laptop, went on facebook, watched some videos, and other random things until it was time to get ready for Louis’. I wore black tights and an off white long sleeve sweater up to my mid-thigh. It was a little cold so I simply brushed my hair down and wore a cute white tule loosely and slipped on my uggs. I headed to Louis’. Zayn’s POV: I really thought about how to tell Liam about Gracie. She is my friend after all so I guessed I should talk to her first. Yesterday I told Layla I’d call her back with a plan and I felt bad for not coming through, so before going to Louis’ I decided I would figure it out. I called Gracie to find out what exactly was going on. “Hello?” “Hey its Zayn.” “Oh..hi” there was a moment of awkward silence. “You wanna explain to me what exactly is happening with you & Nialler?” “Nothing, nothings happening.” “Then was what all that at the club?” “We were drunk Zayn-” “That’s not an excuse. I’ve been drunk loads of time but I’ve never cheated on Layla.” “I….I don’t know.” “And what about Liam? How do you think thats making him feel?!” I was starting to get angry and frustrated. “He doesn’t know Zayn!” “But he will soon!” “What?! Noo, Zayn you can’t! Please don’t tell Liam, I love him-” “No, no you don’t. If you loved him you wouldn’t be snogging Niall every now & then. I’ll see you at Louis’” I hung up and called Layla to tell her what happened. We decided that tonight, when the time was right, we’d tell him gently. Gracie’s POV: When Zayn hung up I panicked. Everything would be ruined, everything!! Zayn hated me, Niall & Liam would hate me! I’m pretty sure Layla’s not too fond of me either and when they all find out….I couldn’t handle it. I ran to the bathroom, grabbed the razor and cut a thin long line right under the one from before. The blood started seeping and the pain kicked in right away. Suddenly I heard my mom’s drunk voice from down the stairs. She was fighting with my Dad again. I sliced another piece just for her. I hated her with all my heart. My life was just full of shit and she made it worse. “Fuuuccckkkkkkkkkkkk!” it hurt and I let it. I let it bleed. I bled away my pain. After all I was just an ugly pathetic cheater. I don’t deserve to be loved. After about a minute I patched it up and washed out the blood from the tub. I checked the time, 4:30pm. I could just not go to Louis’. I could just skip it, it would be easier if I wasn’t there. No, no I had to be there. Maybe I could stop it. I’d talk to Zayn at the party and I’d talk to Niall. Plus i wasnt staying here with my mother, NO WAY. Everything would be fine, I hope. Claire’s POV: Yesterday at Lou’s we decided with Anna and Harry that we were going to tell Liam about Niall and Gracie. We had to make sure Taylor wasn’t there though. We were all going to Louis’ again tonight. I got dressed and headed over. He greeted me at the door. I was wearing a white mini skirt with black designed leggings, a dark blue long sleeve tucked in with a short cardigan on top. Pretty cute if I may say so myself. “Hello gorgeous,” he said, pulling me in through the door and putting his forehead onto mine. “Hello Mr.Tommo.” he smiled and leaned in for a kiss. Sparks everytime, I swear. It felt amazing. I played with his hair when we were interrupted. “AHEM.” Harry said, crossing his arms, pretending to be mad. “you’re cheating on me Lou?!” Louis laughed and pulled away. “No, it’s not what it looks like Harreh!” he said, hugging him. “Save it!” Harry jokes, pushing him away. Anna and I burst into laughter. They were too cute. “Sorry to ruin this but Liam texted me saying he’s on his way with Gracie.” “So what exactly are we gonna say?” Harry asked, still in louis’ arms. “Straight up. ‘Liam, Gracie’s cheating on you with Niall.’” Louis said swaying with Harry. “You make it sound easy” I said. “It will be.” he said, reassuring me. Layla, Taylor, & Zayn came and then lastly Liam and Gracie. We turned on some music and started dancing, drinking, and overall having a good time. Louis, always knowing how to have fun, pulled out Twister and we all started playing. No one really notices when Niall and Gracie headed to the basement. Gracie’s POV: I was beginning to think maybe Niall was in love with me. Why else would he be doing this with me for so long? I told him I needed to talk to him and we went downstairs. He said he wanted to talk to me too. When we got downstairs we sat on the couch and he said he wanted to go first. He seemed excited which was weird. “I wanna show you something I made for Taylor.” My heart dropped. For Taylor?! “Oh..” “I wrote her a song.” he cleared his breath and began. “You know I’ve always got your back girl so let me be the one you come running to, running to, r-r-running” he kept singing in an amazing voice I never knew he had. I sat there with a stupid smile on my face, imaging he was singing it to me. Then he broke into the chorus. “It’s everything about you-you-you, everything that you do-do-do, from the way that we touch baby to the way that you kiss on me.” the song was truly amazing and his voice was so angelic. He finished and smiled at me. “Did you like it?” he asked eagerly. “Yeah, it was amazing!” I said, giving him a hug. Just then I turned around to see Taylor with tears in her eyes. I could hear faint crying and footsteps up the stairs. “Who was that?! Was that Taylor?! Is she crying?!” Niall asked alarmed. “I, I don’t know.” “Oh my god…” he paced back and forth and then ran after her. Taylor’s POV: After I had lost in Twister, I decided to talk to Niall. I missed him so much and I couldn’t hold it in anymore. “Hey, where’s Niall?” I asked Liam. “I think he’s downstairs,” he replied. “Actually, where’s Gracie?” he added quietly to himself. I walked down the stair when I heard a beautiful voice which I recognized as Niall’s. “Everything about you-you-you.” he sang. It sounded wonderful. But who was he singing to? Id never heard that song before. I slowly crept down the stairs and peeked my head through the door. I couldn’t believe my eyes. Niall and Gracie were downstairs. Alone. Hugging. He had sang to her. I felt hot tears streaming down my face. I was sad and angry. How could I believe he wanted me back? After the way I’d treated him? I was so stupid. Gracie noticed me and I ran upstairs. “Taylor! What’s wrong?” “Where are you going?” “What happened?” “Are you okay?” they all asked when I reached the top. Layla and Anna rushed to my side and the other crowded around me. “It’s Niall….and Gracie…downstairs…together…hugging.” I managed through sobs. Layla’s POV: We all turned to look at Liam. His face was red with anger and embarrassment. We all looked at eachother. This was NOT how we planned to tell him. The look on Louis, Claire, Harry & Anna’s face told me they had already known. We were all surprised. We all turned around to see Niall come up the stairs. He gave us all innocent looks and Taylor ran out the door. He ran after her and we all headed downstairs to find Gracie. “Liam!” “We need to talk. Now.” “Don’t you wanna go somewhere mote priva-” “Right now Gracie. Dont bullshit me. What the fuck were you doing alone with Niall behind my back?” “I…Liam it’s not what you think, please” she was starting to cry but Liam didn’t care. “You’re cheating! With my bestfriend? How could you Gracie! I LOVED YOU!” A tear came down his face but he angrily brushed it off. He was so hurt. I’d never seen him like this before. “Liam, please let me explain!” Gracie was sobbing now but Liam had stormed off. We all stood there awkwardly. I sat next to her on the couch. “It’s okay Gracie, he just needs to cool off, he’ll come around” I said, trying to comfort her. “No, it’s done, he hates me, you all probably do.” Zayn stepped forward. “We don’t hate you Gracie, don’t say that.” “Save it, ive heard enough lies.” Louis calm and sat on the other side of her and put his arm around her. “It’s okay, we’re here for you.” he said reassuringly. She ran out crying and we let her. She needed to blow off some steam to. Suddenly Harry was wide-eyed. “Did you see that, or was it just me?!” “See what?” Claire asked. “Her thighs. They had cuts.” We all stood there, jaws dropped.